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beachland
Under 18? If yes, what is your age?: I think 28 at this point
Email + IM: thebloodedprince@gmail.com
Characters Played at Ataraxion: William Tsang (dogbane) and Raven 'Mystique' Darkholme (anybodies)
C H A R A C T E R I N F O R M A T I O N
Name: Helena
Canon: Orphan Black
Original or Alternate Universe: Original
Canon Point: End of Season 1
Number: RNG me
Setting: Orphan Black takes place in modern day North America. Some technological advancements in the series appear to be slightly beyond the scope or at least illegal in actual reality, such as one instance shown of an artificially-created, fully organic tail attached to a human, and of course large-scale cloning projects. Otherwise, the setting maps more or less entirely onto life as we experience it now, down to explicit references made to British history.
History: In 1984, Helena was produced through an illegal cloning project using a surrogate named Amelia. Upon realizing that she had been persuaded to surrogacy using false pretexts-- that her daughters were not to be joining a happy, wealthy couple-- Amelia fled to give birth in secret. After the delivery, her own impoverished circumstances required her to send the clones away. She separated the girls, sending one to live with the state system and the other to a convent in Ukraine.
Helena's time in the convent was not a happy one. She was subject to various physical abuses, including having her lips sewn shut for impertinence once. Overall, her early childhood was extraordinarily harsh and punitive, and characterized by religiously extreme, heavily conservative expectations for her behavior.
At the age of twelve-years-old, her situation changed-- and not for the better. Helena was discovered by a priest named Tomas and a woman named Maggie Chen, who had defected from the cloning project years prior. The two were part of the Prolethean movement, a religious sect that was tremendously impressed by the Bible and felt that synthetically engineered life was against the will of God. As one imagines, that did not spell out good times for Helena. She was essentially brainwashed to believe that she was 'the original' and all clones were lesser, inferior derivatives of her genetic material. Worse, she faced further brutal discipline with the Proletheans, including a form of self-flagellation, and rigorously trained to track and kill other clones using military-grade weapons, impersonation, standard technology, and a whole bunch of squatting.
Helena slew three clones in Europe, by the names of: Danielle Fournier, Janika Zingler, and Aryanna Giordano. She also picked up the trail of one by the name of Katja Obinger, and followed her to Canada in the company of Maggie and Tomas. Incidentally, Katja had made contact with yet more clones. North America turned out to be the next jackpot if you were in the business of murdering genetically identical ladies.
Regrettably, the North American clones turned out super uppity. Discovering Helena and her cohorts were onto them, one clone working as a police officer, Beth Childs, shot and killed Maggie Chen. Helena was far from incapacitated by grief. She managed to hunt down Katja during a rendezvous with Beth, despite the German clone's increased precautionary measures. She tried to take out Beth simultaneously, but the cop lady got away.
AND TURNED OUT TO BE NOT THE COP. Murder attempt on Beth Childs number two went Hella south, when the officer not only thwarted Helena's efforts to take out the other police on her tail, but turned out to be another clone entirely, and then, you know, stabbed Helena with rebar while Helena was trying to take like four seconds to figure out what was going on. However, Helena was more moved by the immediate, visceral connection she felt with this impersonator than the giant hole the woman put in her. She thought about this a lot while haphazardly patching herself up in a nice family's guest bathroom. She left clues for the impersonator in the form of a paper fortune-teller, safely in the care of the resident little kid, knowing the police would turn up to investigate her blood literally everywhere.
It took considerable time and effort to pressure Beth's impersonator into telling her who she was. Helena nearly died of infection at one point, argued with Tomas about it extensively, had her life spared, broke into some more places (nightclubs, residences, police stations, etc.), applied a lot of ultimatums, learned some boring facts about their creators at Dyad Institute, even offering her the option of giving up the other clones' names. The impersonator finally disclosed her name was Sarah Manning, when Helena threatened to leave her sitting zip-tied with a bag over her head in the hands of their terrifying, corporately-powerful creators. Needs must, you know. Helena set Sarah free, of course, and then cut a tail off a toadie to send a message in case they hadn't already figured out she likes knives and hates their stuff.
Wonderfully, Helena used the Internet :)x presumably, to find out that Sarah had a tiny daughter. This fact was somewhat mystifying, given no clones had ever exhibited the ability to procreate before. Motivated both to please Tomas and her own curiosity, Helena went to meet the girl, Kira, who turned out to be way too amazing to abduct. Specifically, 'amazing' refers to the girl's incredible mental and intuitive acumen, and the way she asked sweet questions that made Helena realize-- perhaps for the first time-- that she was thoroughly insane and broken due to her life at the sufferance of ugly and sinister powers beyond her control. Sarah was furious that she'd absconded with Kira, however, and the screaming and running around led to Kira stepping into the path of a car. Kira was hospitalized immediately.
Helena's nigh fanatical interest in Sarah merely intensified after she learned of the other clone's identity and nearly got her daughter killed. Of course, this only led to more strain with Tomas, who didn't understand why this interest didn't conclude promptly with murder even though Helena tried to explain like fifty times about her feelings. It was like nobody cares about her feelings. Incensed and disappointed and probably unsure why the old lies weren't working anymore, Tomas stepped up the abuse, with a lot of hitting and screaming and shoving Helena in a cage. Through ingenious use of her belt, Helena got her mitts on a cellphone and called Sarah for help.
Sarah was still mad about Kira even though Kira was okay, and stuffed her in the boot of her car. Not even Helena siding with Sarah against Tomas, then subsequently mutilating Tomas' eyes made up for that, apparently! Helena played prisoner for a little while, upset but dealing sort of okay, until Sarah suddenly turned up with their birth mother. Their birth mother.
Amid the chaos that ensued, cops and yelling, Helena escaped. She also completely lost it. 'It' may refer to what little sanity she had or temper, whatever the reader prefers-- she lured Amelia out to Sarah's home then murdered her. She almost murdered Sarah too, made quite a big production out of it, but decided in the course of ranting unhappily around the topic of not being the original and Amelia being the asshole who left her to the convent and her whole life being a lie, that killing her twin sister would be incorrect, as she suddenly aspired to have a family.
Sarah shot her instead. Upper-left chest, where her heart should have been, then left her for dead.
At the point that Helena dragged herself to the hospital, she did not fully understand why she was alive. However, she was in too much pain to give it much thought. She passed out under some medical discussion about her heart being on the opposite side of her body from typical, knowing she would receive excellent care from Canada's finest. Little did she know.
Personality: It is fairly easy for most people to write Helena off as insane and leave it at that. She certainly spent most of her life persisting under delusions that were engineered by homicidal cultists and enhanced by abuse and systematic assassin training. However, these delusions are far from unshakable. Demonstration of solid evidence and facts can and have changed her mind about the differences between herself and the other clones, or rather, the lack thereof. She has come to recognize the Proletheans as the actual enemy, as well as the rest of the abuse she received over the course of her life as wrong and having debilitating consequences for herself and the others.
(Note: for the purposes of the game, her initial arrival on the TQ may be characterized by a brief slip-back into old, delusional ways of thinking, but she'll come around in a few weeks a most.)
That does not, however, mean that the consequences are over, or that she's returned to normal functioning. Not by a long stretch. Helena is still markedly bizarre in her behavior and emotional reactions. Her remarkably keen sense of intuition, very similar to Kira's, is not inhibited by normal social mores or disbelief. For example, she able to tell that she and Sarah have a unique 'connection,' despite having killed numerous other clones who were largely identical; similarly, she has a sharp connection with Kira, and many of her violent assaults or retaliations appear to be guided by a remarkable ability to read people's intentions (I.e., in later scenes, she differentiates between a nice guy hitting on her and some moron). However, that is not to say that her intuition equates clarity.
Like most of her fellow clones, Helena is also unusually impulsive. Sometimes this is a problem. Sometimes terrible ideas seem like great ones and sentiment is far stronger than typical objectives, like self-preservation. Helena's way with impulse is at once child-like and murderously competent, based on internal logic that is a lot more logical in hindsight.
Unlike most of the other clones, Helena appears rather poorly socialized. She can in a sense 'fake it' for the purposes of deception, suggesting she has a real concept of what 'normal' looks like. However, a prominent indicator of her weirdness is that she doesn't really care terribly much about what she looks like, or what people think, or the reassurances that they require, often to the detriment of relationships she's actually trying to preserve or cultivate. She is probably intelligent enough to know that she'd get on with folks better if she faked being normal more consistently, but no, from the weird bird postures to the habitual following people around weirdly and pervasive disinterest in explaining herself to anybody.
Notably, Helena is unusually if not randomly violent, capable of killing ruthlessly when she is given a sufficient reason to do so (I.e., the Prolethean war). Her empathy circuits misfire drastically when she's caught up in a given emotion. She will tear up readily for Kira's sweet little face and get peculiarly protective of Sarah, her sestra, but in her resentment and rage, she killed her mother and made it slow.
She is not presently self-injuring, but when she did, she enjoyed it with a distinct masochistic, pleasurable quality.
Outlandish pathology aside, she is very clear and enthusiastic about her likes and hobbies. Helena very much enjoys the company of children, is protective of them, and gets along with them well, though she does have a horrible tendency to inadvertently endanger them because of the chaos that orbits her entire existence. She also passionate about food, especially sweets. Her other interests include music, dancing, and family.
Abilities, Weaknesses and Power Limitations: Helena is a largely normal biological human, with slightly above-average strength, endurance, and agility for an athletic woman. She is able to overcome grown men who have reasonable experience with violence, including Tomas, who was responsible for her training. Her pain tolerance is astronomical.
That is to say, she also has the skillset of an unreasonably talented assassin. She is proficient in the use of sniper rifles and dirtbikes. She has skills with evasion, urban survival, breaking and entering, surveillance, defensive driving, sending creepy messages not everyone will understand, and field medicine, though these skills certainly fall short of perfect. She is also surprisingly talented with 'blending in' and impersonation, especially regarding her fellow clones, and using both police computer systems and publically-available information and technologies to track down and spy on individuals as long as she has their name.
Notably, Helena is bilingual. She speaks both Ukrainian and English, the latter with a heavy accent and sporadic indifference to proper grammar. Her other skills include some knowledge of the Bible (some of which is woefully misappropriated), and rural survival (e.g., how to pitch a tent, find water, etc.).
Her weaknesses include many aspects of her personality as written above. Once her personality and true self-expression surface past the need for deception (I.e., see difference between season 1 and season 2 dancing), she becomes immediately distinct and recognizable and most people just about instantly get that there's something wrong with her. It can make friendships and social interactions, generally, quite difficult!
In addition to the previously-described steak-knife set of 'quirks,' she is forgiving-- sometimes overly so, all things considered, incredibly obsessive and persistent. People often don't like her until they get to know her. Even then, she will probably upset them quite a lot. Helena also appears to have a rather poor concept of her own limitations at times, such as that she has been known to over-extend herself after dramatic blood loss and severe infection.
Inventory:
Dirt bike, gassed up (??? unsure if will fit)
Giant green anorak
2 pairs of boots
3 wife beaters
3 pairs of jeans
Knife with symbolically carved handle
Sniper rifle
2 boxes of rifle ammunition
Box of fried chicken
Bottle of processed sugar
Holy Bible
Appearance: Tatiana Maslany tbh.
The most notable aspect of Helena's appearance is that she looks exactly like dozens of other young women in her homeworld, what with their being clones. As with the others, she appears to be of European ancestry, with light brown eyes, and a slender, almost narrow build, and a fairly prominent jaw softened by a little roundness to her cheeks. Sometimes all of the clones experience a bit of dry skin between their eyebrows, although Helena specifically does not care about it very much.
She marks herself apart, quite literally, by cutting the flesh of her back into a pattern that bears surprising and perhaps inadvertent resemblance to wings. She also dyes her hair a very pale shade of blonde, and something about the process makes the strands frizzy and wavy. She does not tend to wear any makeup, and her features are characterized by a startling pallor and a semi-permanent redness around her eyes.
Age: 28
AU Clarification: NO PLEASE
S A M P L E S
Log Sample:
"I am in Purgatory. I am going to Hell." Her indistinct mumble, self-directed, isn't helped much to most onlookers by the thickness of her accent. Ukrainian.
Blue gel is still sloughing off Helena's shoulders, dripping off her knees, a translucent sheen that makes her gaunt pallor look cyanotic. It clumps in the rifts and scars of her back somehow without stinging, tries to get in her eyes, but she's holding her hands up to stop it. She's holding her hands up to her head, too, as if reinforcing the physical containment of her skull might do something for the terrifying cavalcade of possibilities pounding through her mind.
She steps out of the gravcouch. Wispy thing that she is, it seems more by some trick of floating against the pull of gravity, rather than the movement of muscle and momentum. Wobbly, though. Coltish. Her eyes are huge under the shadows that her fingers stripe across them. She's looking at the bodies around her, too certain to acknowledge the confusion picking at the periphery of her thoughts. "This is His wrath. I went against him, and I must find path of light again."
She'd know who she was looking for anywhere.
Any one of them will do.
Comms Sample:
I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE SPACE JELL - O
I WOULD APPRECIATE ASSISTANCE IN THIS
COME TO CORNER OF 33 FLOOR WHERE HALLWAY DEAD ENDS TO THE RIGHT
THE LIGHT IS POOR
I AM WAITING
Your Name: Chinatown
OOC Journal:
beachlandUnder 18? If yes, what is your age?: I think 28 at this point
Email + IM: thebloodedprince@gmail.com
Characters Played at Ataraxion: William Tsang (
dogbane) and Raven 'Mystique' Darkholme (anybodies)C H A R A C T E R I N F O R M A T I O N
Name: Helena
Canon: Orphan Black
Original or Alternate Universe: Original
Canon Point: End of Season 1
Number: RNG me
Setting: Orphan Black takes place in modern day North America. Some technological advancements in the series appear to be slightly beyond the scope or at least illegal in actual reality, such as one instance shown of an artificially-created, fully organic tail attached to a human, and of course large-scale cloning projects. Otherwise, the setting maps more or less entirely onto life as we experience it now, down to explicit references made to British history.
History: In 1984, Helena was produced through an illegal cloning project using a surrogate named Amelia. Upon realizing that she had been persuaded to surrogacy using false pretexts-- that her daughters were not to be joining a happy, wealthy couple-- Amelia fled to give birth in secret. After the delivery, her own impoverished circumstances required her to send the clones away. She separated the girls, sending one to live with the state system and the other to a convent in Ukraine.
Helena's time in the convent was not a happy one. She was subject to various physical abuses, including having her lips sewn shut for impertinence once. Overall, her early childhood was extraordinarily harsh and punitive, and characterized by religiously extreme, heavily conservative expectations for her behavior.
At the age of twelve-years-old, her situation changed-- and not for the better. Helena was discovered by a priest named Tomas and a woman named Maggie Chen, who had defected from the cloning project years prior. The two were part of the Prolethean movement, a religious sect that was tremendously impressed by the Bible and felt that synthetically engineered life was against the will of God. As one imagines, that did not spell out good times for Helena. She was essentially brainwashed to believe that she was 'the original' and all clones were lesser, inferior derivatives of her genetic material. Worse, she faced further brutal discipline with the Proletheans, including a form of self-flagellation, and rigorously trained to track and kill other clones using military-grade weapons, impersonation, standard technology, and a whole bunch of squatting.
Helena slew three clones in Europe, by the names of: Danielle Fournier, Janika Zingler, and Aryanna Giordano. She also picked up the trail of one by the name of Katja Obinger, and followed her to Canada in the company of Maggie and Tomas. Incidentally, Katja had made contact with yet more clones. North America turned out to be the next jackpot if you were in the business of murdering genetically identical ladies.
Regrettably, the North American clones turned out super uppity. Discovering Helena and her cohorts were onto them, one clone working as a police officer, Beth Childs, shot and killed Maggie Chen. Helena was far from incapacitated by grief. She managed to hunt down Katja during a rendezvous with Beth, despite the German clone's increased precautionary measures. She tried to take out Beth simultaneously, but the cop lady got away.
AND TURNED OUT TO BE NOT THE COP. Murder attempt on Beth Childs number two went Hella south, when the officer not only thwarted Helena's efforts to take out the other police on her tail, but turned out to be another clone entirely, and then, you know, stabbed Helena with rebar while Helena was trying to take like four seconds to figure out what was going on. However, Helena was more moved by the immediate, visceral connection she felt with this impersonator than the giant hole the woman put in her. She thought about this a lot while haphazardly patching herself up in a nice family's guest bathroom. She left clues for the impersonator in the form of a paper fortune-teller, safely in the care of the resident little kid, knowing the police would turn up to investigate her blood literally everywhere.
It took considerable time and effort to pressure Beth's impersonator into telling her who she was. Helena nearly died of infection at one point, argued with Tomas about it extensively, had her life spared, broke into some more places (nightclubs, residences, police stations, etc.), applied a lot of ultimatums, learned some boring facts about their creators at Dyad Institute, even offering her the option of giving up the other clones' names. The impersonator finally disclosed her name was Sarah Manning, when Helena threatened to leave her sitting zip-tied with a bag over her head in the hands of their terrifying, corporately-powerful creators. Needs must, you know. Helena set Sarah free, of course, and then cut a tail off a toadie to send a message in case they hadn't already figured out she likes knives and hates their stuff.
Wonderfully, Helena used the Internet :)x presumably, to find out that Sarah had a tiny daughter. This fact was somewhat mystifying, given no clones had ever exhibited the ability to procreate before. Motivated both to please Tomas and her own curiosity, Helena went to meet the girl, Kira, who turned out to be way too amazing to abduct. Specifically, 'amazing' refers to the girl's incredible mental and intuitive acumen, and the way she asked sweet questions that made Helena realize-- perhaps for the first time-- that she was thoroughly insane and broken due to her life at the sufferance of ugly and sinister powers beyond her control. Sarah was furious that she'd absconded with Kira, however, and the screaming and running around led to Kira stepping into the path of a car. Kira was hospitalized immediately.
Helena's nigh fanatical interest in Sarah merely intensified after she learned of the other clone's identity and nearly got her daughter killed. Of course, this only led to more strain with Tomas, who didn't understand why this interest didn't conclude promptly with murder even though Helena tried to explain like fifty times about her feelings. It was like nobody cares about her feelings. Incensed and disappointed and probably unsure why the old lies weren't working anymore, Tomas stepped up the abuse, with a lot of hitting and screaming and shoving Helena in a cage. Through ingenious use of her belt, Helena got her mitts on a cellphone and called Sarah for help.
Sarah was still mad about Kira even though Kira was okay, and stuffed her in the boot of her car. Not even Helena siding with Sarah against Tomas, then subsequently mutilating Tomas' eyes made up for that, apparently! Helena played prisoner for a little while, upset but dealing sort of okay, until Sarah suddenly turned up with their birth mother. Their birth mother.
Amid the chaos that ensued, cops and yelling, Helena escaped. She also completely lost it. 'It' may refer to what little sanity she had or temper, whatever the reader prefers-- she lured Amelia out to Sarah's home then murdered her. She almost murdered Sarah too, made quite a big production out of it, but decided in the course of ranting unhappily around the topic of not being the original and Amelia being the asshole who left her to the convent and her whole life being a lie, that killing her twin sister would be incorrect, as she suddenly aspired to have a family.
Sarah shot her instead. Upper-left chest, where her heart should have been, then left her for dead.
At the point that Helena dragged herself to the hospital, she did not fully understand why she was alive. However, she was in too much pain to give it much thought. She passed out under some medical discussion about her heart being on the opposite side of her body from typical, knowing she would receive excellent care from Canada's finest. Little did she know.
Personality: It is fairly easy for most people to write Helena off as insane and leave it at that. She certainly spent most of her life persisting under delusions that were engineered by homicidal cultists and enhanced by abuse and systematic assassin training. However, these delusions are far from unshakable. Demonstration of solid evidence and facts can and have changed her mind about the differences between herself and the other clones, or rather, the lack thereof. She has come to recognize the Proletheans as the actual enemy, as well as the rest of the abuse she received over the course of her life as wrong and having debilitating consequences for herself and the others.
(Note: for the purposes of the game, her initial arrival on the TQ may be characterized by a brief slip-back into old, delusional ways of thinking, but she'll come around in a few weeks a most.)
That does not, however, mean that the consequences are over, or that she's returned to normal functioning. Not by a long stretch. Helena is still markedly bizarre in her behavior and emotional reactions. Her remarkably keen sense of intuition, very similar to Kira's, is not inhibited by normal social mores or disbelief. For example, she able to tell that she and Sarah have a unique 'connection,' despite having killed numerous other clones who were largely identical; similarly, she has a sharp connection with Kira, and many of her violent assaults or retaliations appear to be guided by a remarkable ability to read people's intentions (I.e., in later scenes, she differentiates between a nice guy hitting on her and some moron). However, that is not to say that her intuition equates clarity.
Like most of her fellow clones, Helena is also unusually impulsive. Sometimes this is a problem. Sometimes terrible ideas seem like great ones and sentiment is far stronger than typical objectives, like self-preservation. Helena's way with impulse is at once child-like and murderously competent, based on internal logic that is a lot more logical in hindsight.
Unlike most of the other clones, Helena appears rather poorly socialized. She can in a sense 'fake it' for the purposes of deception, suggesting she has a real concept of what 'normal' looks like. However, a prominent indicator of her weirdness is that she doesn't really care terribly much about what she looks like, or what people think, or the reassurances that they require, often to the detriment of relationships she's actually trying to preserve or cultivate. She is probably intelligent enough to know that she'd get on with folks better if she faked being normal more consistently, but no, from the weird bird postures to the habitual following people around weirdly and pervasive disinterest in explaining herself to anybody.
Notably, Helena is unusually if not randomly violent, capable of killing ruthlessly when she is given a sufficient reason to do so (I.e., the Prolethean war). Her empathy circuits misfire drastically when she's caught up in a given emotion. She will tear up readily for Kira's sweet little face and get peculiarly protective of Sarah, her sestra, but in her resentment and rage, she killed her mother and made it slow.
She is not presently self-injuring, but when she did, she enjoyed it with a distinct masochistic, pleasurable quality.
Outlandish pathology aside, she is very clear and enthusiastic about her likes and hobbies. Helena very much enjoys the company of children, is protective of them, and gets along with them well, though she does have a horrible tendency to inadvertently endanger them because of the chaos that orbits her entire existence. She also passionate about food, especially sweets. Her other interests include music, dancing, and family.
Abilities, Weaknesses and Power Limitations: Helena is a largely normal biological human, with slightly above-average strength, endurance, and agility for an athletic woman. She is able to overcome grown men who have reasonable experience with violence, including Tomas, who was responsible for her training. Her pain tolerance is astronomical.
That is to say, she also has the skillset of an unreasonably talented assassin. She is proficient in the use of sniper rifles and dirtbikes. She has skills with evasion, urban survival, breaking and entering, surveillance, defensive driving, sending creepy messages not everyone will understand, and field medicine, though these skills certainly fall short of perfect. She is also surprisingly talented with 'blending in' and impersonation, especially regarding her fellow clones, and using both police computer systems and publically-available information and technologies to track down and spy on individuals as long as she has their name.
Notably, Helena is bilingual. She speaks both Ukrainian and English, the latter with a heavy accent and sporadic indifference to proper grammar. Her other skills include some knowledge of the Bible (some of which is woefully misappropriated), and rural survival (e.g., how to pitch a tent, find water, etc.).
Her weaknesses include many aspects of her personality as written above. Once her personality and true self-expression surface past the need for deception (I.e., see difference between season 1 and season 2 dancing), she becomes immediately distinct and recognizable and most people just about instantly get that there's something wrong with her. It can make friendships and social interactions, generally, quite difficult!
In addition to the previously-described steak-knife set of 'quirks,' she is forgiving-- sometimes overly so, all things considered, incredibly obsessive and persistent. People often don't like her until they get to know her. Even then, she will probably upset them quite a lot. Helena also appears to have a rather poor concept of her own limitations at times, such as that she has been known to over-extend herself after dramatic blood loss and severe infection.
Inventory:
Appearance: Tatiana Maslany tbh.
The most notable aspect of Helena's appearance is that she looks exactly like dozens of other young women in her homeworld, what with their being clones. As with the others, she appears to be of European ancestry, with light brown eyes, and a slender, almost narrow build, and a fairly prominent jaw softened by a little roundness to her cheeks. Sometimes all of the clones experience a bit of dry skin between their eyebrows, although Helena specifically does not care about it very much.
She marks herself apart, quite literally, by cutting the flesh of her back into a pattern that bears surprising and perhaps inadvertent resemblance to wings. She also dyes her hair a very pale shade of blonde, and something about the process makes the strands frizzy and wavy. She does not tend to wear any makeup, and her features are characterized by a startling pallor and a semi-permanent redness around her eyes.
Age: 28
AU Clarification: NO PLEASE
S A M P L E S
Log Sample:
"I am in Purgatory. I am going to Hell." Her indistinct mumble, self-directed, isn't helped much to most onlookers by the thickness of her accent. Ukrainian.
Blue gel is still sloughing off Helena's shoulders, dripping off her knees, a translucent sheen that makes her gaunt pallor look cyanotic. It clumps in the rifts and scars of her back somehow without stinging, tries to get in her eyes, but she's holding her hands up to stop it. She's holding her hands up to her head, too, as if reinforcing the physical containment of her skull might do something for the terrifying cavalcade of possibilities pounding through her mind.
She steps out of the gravcouch. Wispy thing that she is, it seems more by some trick of floating against the pull of gravity, rather than the movement of muscle and momentum. Wobbly, though. Coltish. Her eyes are huge under the shadows that her fingers stripe across them. She's looking at the bodies around her, too certain to acknowledge the confusion picking at the periphery of her thoughts. "This is His wrath. I went against him, and I must find path of light again."
She'd know who she was looking for anywhere.
Any one of them will do.
Comms Sample:
I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE SPACE JELL - O
I WOULD APPRECIATE ASSISTANCE IN THIS
COME TO CORNER OF 33 FLOOR WHERE HALLWAY DEAD ENDS TO THE RIGHT
THE LIGHT IS POOR
I AM WAITING